There is too much concern involved in perfection of display, expression and quality of drawing OCs that lately I cannot really draw them.
There is too much restriction in the environment, theme, implications that I can draw around the OCs, for it may violate their characters.
While my project as a whole greatly revolve around my beliefs, principals and values, my OCs themselves are no longer a direct display or projection of my own feelings and my ideals, therefore I have to respect them as separate creations. This creates a lot of subconscious pressure, even though I tell myself what they used to be and what they can still be. I have plans for their development, the process has gone pretty serious and deep, that I can't get myself to really fool around with it.
At this state it kind of sucks because my project is currently not on a direct roll but the characters are surely following along with it. They are slowly fading into a realm that makes it harder for me to draw freely.
And to be frank, I have yet to draw legitimately serious looking drawings yet, so my doodles of attempts look like adolescences, limbs growing out of proportion and zit ridden face too damn funny to take seriously.
So with the previous and latter parts combined together, I am stuck in a very uncomfortable state with a hormonal, teenager personification of my current abilities; can't take my own works seriously and my work feels left out otherwise.
Perhaps this is a common state? Maybe if I come past through this, it might provide a nice accomplishment and definitely something worthwhile to reflect on.
So this is one of my very few somewhat successful doodles that came naturally; no expectation whatsoever and OCs not under risk (in case drawn hideously). It came out interesting.
I work with a lot of Indian coworkers and I have dabbled into Indian culture just very slightly, not only because of peer influence but because of my interests in Yoga practices and Buddhism as well.
I can't say I am interested in Indian culture as a whole nor even that fond of it, but for philosophies and practices deeply incorporated in Yoga and Buddhism to have emerged in this culture at all, gives me even a bit to look into.
Also I love Indian food. Can't get enough of their delectable cuisines, and the diversity of food within just one country. It's also rather comical how ridiculous the diversity of language and dialect is.
So this doodle was inspired by whatever I can remember or recall about visual aspects of India. Small details, multitudes of arms and Sari....I don't even mean to be culturally or politically correct about this picture. I have yet to grasp the general features used in Indian paintings and designs, but I like the general feel of it when incorporated into a more modern style illustration.
This ended up more text than the drawing itself, I think I spent more time typing than drawing. Actually as I was drawing this character and then later reading blogs and commenting on them, I kept thinking of speaking in the calm, wise voice of the goddess. Thoughts organized themselves so quickly and rolled so well into words of full expression. Formation of sentences felt clean and purposeful (at least for me, not sure about you guys) and I felt all words I type, the additional lines I draw, felt like a very energetic creation, just as everything spoken and created by the goddess is disperse of internal light and wisdom.
It is totally possible that normally around this night time my thought processes are more efficient. Perhaps the satisfaction of this natural drawing gave me extra energy as well.
The essence of this drawing certainly served its purpose. Unfortunately, I must sleep now, before I keep rambling over to the next adjacent topic that I can think of. Hopefully I will be able to use this momentum for just a little longer.
Not much post processing on this picture, so the drawing might be difficult to interpret. If you can figure out where her shoulder is, you deserve a cookie.
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